Tracing You
Tracing You
2022 / 5'09" / Single-channel video
So far, I've been attracted to personal footage by Japanese families posted on YouTube. Never met them, but I've been tracing You.

 

You are from YouTube. Like the other families, You post the stock footage with Your child. For example, You are in a park, going down the long slide, eating the lunch box, or fed with a milk bottle. I gaze at them. I am from a country where I can’t marry a same-sex person. I don’t want my queer film as a typical love drama, but more fragmental in an unbalanced-balance situation, filled with the traced Your footage.

After Your footage, I put the conversation with my friends on Zoom. They are also like me, longing for those daily fragments. Gradually we get to play a remembering game. When we met, we did or said something like this and found out if he remembers them. One of them used to be my one-sided love. I have to admit that awkwardness when he doesn’t remember, and vice versa, I remember them clearly. I or we have to accept them, hoping we can be You someday.